Difficulties

Things I find difficult; a list in random order:

• Remembering to blog. Even though I write it down and plan on it...I seldom remember. 
• Getting all the things done I want to get done. I make a list. I have a work list and an at home list. Can't seem to get it ALL done. 
• Staying focused on any one thing. I really appreciate re-discovering paper planners! However I really struggle with ADD. Every day is a battle to stay focused..even when it's written down and I know where to start and what needs to be done. 
• Keeping with my diet. 
• Not overspending my budget!! This means possibly buying a new purple A5 Malden and not really needing it! 
• Getting enough sleep every night. Hard time letting things shut down and off. 
• Waiting for spring! I am so done with winter! 

Lists

• Work has banned cell phones from entering our building. This has caused a major upset with all of my co-workers. It's not that we're on our phones all day long...but it's difficult to sit and stay in a building all day without knowing anything of the world outside. 
• Needless to say, it HAS impacted my blogging, picture taking and Facebook where my planner is concerned. However, I do use my planner a ton more than I did before. Because I'm not allowed to have my digital pda with me, I HAVE to use my Filofax! How amazing is that!? 
• I am becoming more courageous with planning events due to having a planner. I feel less stress that I will fail and that I will forget something important. 
• I love my hairstylist. He's been my soul mate and best friend for over 8 years now. I can talk to him about anything. Lately, it's been so good to just BE myself with him. I saw him yesterday and first thing I said was, "I want crazy purple hair!" and he says, "Yeah!! Let's do it!" Gosh, I need that in my life. 
• Been playing more video games. 
• Been working hard on making and maintaining my female relationships. This is a real struggle for me. I gave my heart to my "not really ever best friend, but what else do I call her" best friend years ago..and having female friends is SO hard for me. My eye is so crooked when another female wants to hang out or go for coffee. I'm jaded. I hate that I still carry that. But I'm working on trusting..and I'm working on pushing myself to keep on in my relationships with other women, even when they're difficult. 
• Chris and I decided to spend one or two weekends a month having dinner parties at our house. Not huge parties...just have someone(s) over for food and movies or chatting to catch up. Considering what a freak I am and what an introvert he is...this is HUGE. 
• I realize that my blog lately has been nothing but Filofax porn and not a lot of knitting, food or randomness...so I'll work on that. 

Peace. Chubby pandas and what the heck...vodka. LOL 

-Wayword

2013 Review

• I was promoted at work. Which basically means I work more for the same pay...with a different title to my job.
• My kids and Chris finally get along symbiotically. I wrote earlier this year that they were all driving me crazy with their reactions to each other. This has since worked itself out. 
• I am becoming better friends with my ex-husband. We have so much history and obviously share children. At a recent sit-down I looked into his eyes and...something happened. He isn't a monster. He isn't my stupid ex-husband. He is a person. I will make him my friend if it's the last thing I do! Things are much better here. 
• My family is still relatively healthy. My sister is struggling with certain addictions still and my brother still has lung disease issues, but they are no longer life threatening...so I'm glad for that. 
• Somehow I still have friends even though I am obsessed with my family and myself. There are still people who love me and find the time to hang out with me. Even though my best friend Christian moved to Wisconsin for a job I have seen her like 3 times this year. 
• We lent our van Trusty to my parents and bought me a commuter car out of pocket. I never thought I would be able to afford to buy a car out of pocket, but we did...so financially..things are FINALLY looking up. :) 

Take a look at these chest puppies!!

• I fell off the wagon. Downloaded Warcraft, then proceeded to shake and gleefully giggle in the glowing of my laptop screen until 11pm when I logged out and rejoined the human race. 
• Work is busy...but not super busy. It's sort of a catch twenty two. When I'm really busy...I LOVE work. It's exciting and entertaining. When it's a normal pace...it draaaaags and I'm bored. 
• Daniel said I seem happier and I drink less. What an accomplishment. :)
• Our cat Felicity is shedding all over the house. I want to shave her bald. I dislike her hair everywhere...it's annoying and all over my clothes. 
• We bought a wok. When I seasoned it...it seemed to go well? But, after cooking with it...I burned the chicken and everything had a weird burnt flavor to it. 
• It's the second thing I've burnt this week! So I am on a roll. 
• My garden tomatoes aren't going as well as my lawn. I have to mow that stupid lawn like EVERY week! And my tomato plants mock me with their dwarfism. 
• Speaking of drinking less...I'd like some booze. 
• Today I heard someone refer to her VERY LARGE BREASTS as "chest puppies". I snickered and snorted like an immature 12 year old. I'm a dope. 
• My fingernails do not like me chewing on them all the time. They are sore and bleeding a lot of the time. I fell off that wagon about a month ago when I started chewing my nails again, after TWO years of never biting one nail. 
• I am not doing well with wagons lately. 
• My wagon jumping has led me to stop hating on my ex so much. He recently got married to his whore of the month. Made an honest who am I kidding,she's a harlot of Biblical proportions  woman of her. I am not sure why I decided to be nice to him from now on...but it makes me feel happier. So, there is that. 
• Well...vent is done installing...so I'm off to play some WoW. hehe! 

-Waywordgrrl

This week on

• I am reading/listening through the Host by Stephanie Meyer again. It's so good. And it will refresh me before I go see the movie for it. 
• Knitting & baking ALOT. 
• Working a lot...my mind is there much of the time. I wish I could just get it out of my head sometimes...but I can't. I think about projects that are due. I think about how I can be more fun at the FUN committee. It's kind of like my life away from home. 
• I am not so good at balancing anything. 
• So it's either home or work. Right now work wins. 
• Hopefully this weekend will have lots of sleep in it. AND more pita bread and homemade hummus. 

-Wayword

There's some Native Pride...some.

I have taken to writing all my capital A's to look like tepees. #stayingbrown&proud