Difficulties

Things I find difficult; a list in random order:

• Remembering to blog. Even though I write it down and plan on it...I seldom remember. 
• Getting all the things done I want to get done. I make a list. I have a work list and an at home list. Can't seem to get it ALL done. 
• Staying focused on any one thing. I really appreciate re-discovering paper planners! However I really struggle with ADD. Every day is a battle to stay focused..even when it's written down and I know where to start and what needs to be done. 
• Keeping with my diet. 
• Not overspending my budget!! This means possibly buying a new purple A5 Malden and not really needing it! 
• Getting enough sleep every night. Hard time letting things shut down and off. 
• Waiting for spring! I am so done with winter! 

Lists

• Work has banned cell phones from entering our building. This has caused a major upset with all of my co-workers. It's not that we're on our phones all day long...but it's difficult to sit and stay in a building all day without knowing anything of the world outside. 
• Needless to say, it HAS impacted my blogging, picture taking and Facebook where my planner is concerned. However, I do use my planner a ton more than I did before. Because I'm not allowed to have my digital pda with me, I HAVE to use my Filofax! How amazing is that!? 
• I am becoming more courageous with planning events due to having a planner. I feel less stress that I will fail and that I will forget something important. 
• I love my hairstylist. He's been my soul mate and best friend for over 8 years now. I can talk to him about anything. Lately, it's been so good to just BE myself with him. I saw him yesterday and first thing I said was, "I want crazy purple hair!" and he says, "Yeah!! Let's do it!" Gosh, I need that in my life. 
• Been playing more video games. 
• Been working hard on making and maintaining my female relationships. This is a real struggle for me. I gave my heart to my "not really ever best friend, but what else do I call her" best friend years ago..and having female friends is SO hard for me. My eye is so crooked when another female wants to hang out or go for coffee. I'm jaded. I hate that I still carry that. But I'm working on trusting..and I'm working on pushing myself to keep on in my relationships with other women, even when they're difficult. 
• Chris and I decided to spend one or two weekends a month having dinner parties at our house. Not huge parties...just have someone(s) over for food and movies or chatting to catch up. Considering what a freak I am and what an introvert he is...this is HUGE. 
• I realize that my blog lately has been nothing but Filofax porn and not a lot of knitting, food or randomness...so I'll work on that. 

Peace. Chubby pandas and what the heck...vodka. LOL 

-Wayword

2013 Review

• I was promoted at work. Which basically means I work more for the same pay...with a different title to my job.
• My kids and Chris finally get along symbiotically. I wrote earlier this year that they were all driving me crazy with their reactions to each other. This has since worked itself out. 
• I am becoming better friends with my ex-husband. We have so much history and obviously share children. At a recent sit-down I looked into his eyes and...something happened. He isn't a monster. He isn't my stupid ex-husband. He is a person. I will make him my friend if it's the last thing I do! Things are much better here. 
• My family is still relatively healthy. My sister is struggling with certain addictions still and my brother still has lung disease issues, but they are no longer life threatening...so I'm glad for that. 
• Somehow I still have friends even though I am obsessed with my family and myself. There are still people who love me and find the time to hang out with me. Even though my best friend Christian moved to Wisconsin for a job I have seen her like 3 times this year. 
• We lent our van Trusty to my parents and bought me a commuter car out of pocket. I never thought I would be able to afford to buy a car out of pocket, but we did...so financially..things are FINALLY looking up. :) 

Listies

• I can't think of any good resolutions other than the old ones that I've made, but haven't kept. 
• Recovering from a really bad flu. It was a good flu in that I lost 6lbs. I know about 4lbs of that is probably water, but hey! That is good news. hehe
• Watching movies/tv shows have kept me occupied while I've been sick. However, I only pay really close attention when they show a binder or a planner. Then I pause and (zoom in if it's Netflix) contemplate what planner brand it is. It caught my eye that Robin from "Sister Wives" uses a Kate Spade! 
• I think if I keep any resolutions this year they will be the ones that involve documenting my year, yarn, weight loss and planning/organizing. Those seem to be the most important. 

-Wayword

Listies!

•I like it cold at night when I'm sleeping. But I need it to be warm to get out of bed.

•I feel burned out with bento. Plus. It's so hard for my girls to bring their bentos home from school. 

•Thanksgiving is in three days and I don't have a turkey yet! ...or anything! 

•I feel lost today as I don't have a planner/plan for the week. I shouldn't have moved from my domino without having my Original ready to go. Noted! 

•This is my second year to no do Nanowrimo. :-( 

•I'm so freaking in love with my husband. My heart has that achy hurty happy feeling to it. I still find it strange that I feel so strongly after these three years. 

•I've lost 4lbs in the last month. Yay me! I am only watching my portions. Not really saying no to anything. 

•Birthdays are over. Thank goodness! Glad I have so many children to celebrate...but it kills our bank. Lol

•And lastly, a quote. 

Not sure of the source. Someone sent it to me via text. :-) -source, the Interweb. 

Wayword out!

Take a look at these chest puppies!!

• I fell off the wagon. Downloaded Warcraft, then proceeded to shake and gleefully giggle in the glowing of my laptop screen until 11pm when I logged out and rejoined the human race. 
• Work is busy...but not super busy. It's sort of a catch twenty two. When I'm really busy...I LOVE work. It's exciting and entertaining. When it's a normal pace...it draaaaags and I'm bored. 
• Daniel said I seem happier and I drink less. What an accomplishment. :)
• Our cat Felicity is shedding all over the house. I want to shave her bald. I dislike her hair everywhere...it's annoying and all over my clothes. 
• We bought a wok. When I seasoned it...it seemed to go well? But, after cooking with it...I burned the chicken and everything had a weird burnt flavor to it. 
• It's the second thing I've burnt this week! So I am on a roll. 
• My garden tomatoes aren't going as well as my lawn. I have to mow that stupid lawn like EVERY week! And my tomato plants mock me with their dwarfism. 
• Speaking of drinking less...I'd like some booze. 
• Today I heard someone refer to her VERY LARGE BREASTS as "chest puppies". I snickered and snorted like an immature 12 year old. I'm a dope. 
• My fingernails do not like me chewing on them all the time. They are sore and bleeding a lot of the time. I fell off that wagon about a month ago when I started chewing my nails again, after TWO years of never biting one nail. 
• I am not doing well with wagons lately. 
• My wagon jumping has led me to stop hating on my ex so much. He recently got married to his whore of the month. Made an honest who am I kidding,she's a harlot of Biblical proportions  woman of her. I am not sure why I decided to be nice to him from now on...but it makes me feel happier. So, there is that. 
• Well...vent is done installing...so I'm off to play some WoW. hehe! 

-Waywordgrrl

Still here...

• I am at home sick today. I was home sick yesterday too. But, actually felt so god awful sick that I couldn't do anything to save my life. Today, I am sitting up in bed and resting. ACTUALLY resting guys!! 
• I have done a little bit of knitting. And watching Dance Moms. 
• It feels like heaven to just sit down and not do anything. 
• I started some bread for dinner. I am defrosting the flank steak at the same time. 
• It's nice to be at home during the day time hours. As well as not feeling rushed about dinner. 
• This morning started out well with my being able to take the girls to school this morning. That hasn't happened at all during this year. It's a HUGE blessing to be able to do that sometimes. 
• I have spent most of the morning reading blogs and making mental notes as to how to be better organized. I don't know if it does any good....lol
• I am planning trip to go see my friend Christian in WI. I haven't been there in YEARS. It will be fun to see her and what her life is like there. I miss her a lot. 
• My template on this blog is annoying. I don't really like it...but I haven't had the time to figure out how to fix it. 

This week on

• I am reading/listening through the Host by Stephanie Meyer again. It's so good. And it will refresh me before I go see the movie for it. 
• Knitting & baking ALOT. 
• Working a lot...my mind is there much of the time. I wish I could just get it out of my head sometimes...but I can't. I think about projects that are due. I think about how I can be more fun at the FUN committee. It's kind of like my life away from home. 
• I am not so good at balancing anything. 
• So it's either home or work. Right now work wins. 
• Hopefully this weekend will have lots of sleep in it. AND more pita bread and homemade hummus. 

-Wayword

Happy Valentine's!

• So Valentine's went well. I definitely win the award for being the most romantic. 
• I have to admit that Chris is not romantic at all. 
• When I am not at my computer, I think of all sorts of things to blog about. I'm at work and something pops into my head. When I get to my computer...I can't think of a single dang thing!! 
• So many things interest me on the internet. It's disgusting. I'm like an internet junkie. 
• This keyboard on my laptop has a reach to the spacebar. Christian's thumbs would NEVER make it to the spacebar. 
• Nya went to the vet. Of course when you go to the vet, they make a huge list of things you HAVE to do or you are a horrible dog owner. I opted to leave a few things off the list for today and save them for another time...I appreciate my vet not pressuring me to do things that I can't pay for yet. But, instead recommending what is necessary for today.
• I bought Chris a Kindle Fire HD for his birthday. 
• I already gave it to him as I can't hold presents or secrets. He LOVES it! So yay! I'm a hit again...two days after Valentine's. 
• My mom and dad are coming to visit on Monday, so that means I need to clean up around here. 
• Guess who doesn't have to work Monday!! ME! And I get it off paid!! Yeah Buddy! 
• More changes to the blog to come....

-Wayword

Sunday Rundown

• Kids are back from their dad's. It always feels like time stands still when they are away. I am like a lonely dog that just waits until they come home. Very little exists when we are apart. 
• However, I always enjoy my alone time with my new husband. hehe. It's just a good time to be together and have time for each other. 
• We didn't really DO anything. Except go out for dinner once and go to Best Buy to get my awesome new laptop. 
• I am taking the girls out soon to buy Valentine Day card supplies. I LOVE making Valentine's Day cards! It's always tempting to make my own while they make theirs. haha. 
• There is an envelope contest at work that I am going to enter. You decorate an envelope and it gets judged on Valentine's. I think you win a candy bar. 
• Going out for card supplies will kill two birds with one stone. So that makes me excited. 
• Still bleeding like a stuck pig. This is week 2 I have been miscarrying the blighted ovum. It's annoying and somewhat painful. I am probably more annoyed than anything...I have done a lot of whining. 
• My ultimate plan is to lose some more weight before I get pregnant again. My goal is 40lbs. It's been done before, but I am a little trepidatious. 
• I am not sure that is a word... It sounds like a word.
• Anyway. It's going okay. However, it's really hard to diet when your husband eats the worst snacks and food right in front of you. 
• At some point I plan on joining a gym. I know what I need to do, but actually getting the time and relieving myself of guilt to do it...are two different things. 
• Okay. Off to make some dinner. 

-Sarah aka Wayword

Like a bad song...

• Sometimes you get this idea to DO something and it's almost impossible to get it OUT of your head until you get the chance to do it. 
• Sometimes this is a good thing...sometimes this means you'll probably end up arrested..or maybe broke...or maybe missing an arm if you do it. 
• Sometimes you don't do anything...therefore you're like the best procrastinator of all time and you look back at your life and you regret all the times you didn't do your good ideas. 
• We went to Best Buy today and bought a new laptop. It's been a long time coming for me. I haven't really been "online" in over a year. It's nice because it's opening those doors for me to stay connected with people. 
• I decided to make this my permanent blog for now. I thought about using Tumblr full time...but it's too much work to balance everything. Plus, I would kind of like to have a blog that I can really 'write' on and not just throw a bunch of photos up on. 
• Though who doesn't like a good Grumpy Cat meme isn't someone I want reading this anyway!! 
• I wonder if this thing could handle WoW....*ideas*
• Last night my needles finished a ribbon scarf that I have been working on for over two months. TWO months! On a ribbon scarf for crying out loud! But, it's finished now and it looks quite fabulous. 
• Right now I am off to install iTunes to my laptop and hopefully start designing my blog template...this one is hokey. 

Monkeys, whipcream and itchy hats,

-Sarah aka Waywordgrrl